GET GONE
The Beginning of an End to a Beginning
by Eduardo

   Thursday - The day after D Day

  A new day has dawned. This is the first day of my life and already I feel an inch taller. I came downstairs and looked in the front room at the two chairs huddled close to each other and had a quick regret at why Eliza would not adapt, just a little to normality. If she had of done, we would still be sitting there as the two happy soul mates I dreamt we were. I guess in reality, I have only ever been her friend. With the added bonus of a good lover and decent provider thrown in. But I expected so much more and the realities of this illusionary life we led only gave back deep hurt.
After a quick shower and cup of tea to start the day, I sauntered off to the lodge until the new cleaner arrives at ten.

  Wow, what a cracker! Young, slim, divorced, green eyed blond and hungry for work. So the first Casanova went into action. Talk about melting, oh yeah. This one has buttons and as if by magic, I can see them all.
The crunch line came when the subject of cooking came up. It turns out that she cooks for a family about twenty minutes away four days a week until six. When I suggested coming back tonight after work and cooking for me, she really melted, even that little red neck blush and a twiddle of her long blond hair. Talk about body language when she agreed with great haste to come back later.
She's got some lamb steaks out and I cant wait to smell the kitchen in action again.
A fine Italian wine will be more than sufficient to set her dream of a nice dinner with male company, that she has not experienced for obviously so long.
And in return for making such a simple dream come true for a lonely lady? A table full of good food and a young grateful body oozing passion.
Simple exchange of instant gratitude, now that is what I need.
No I am not sex mad. Its just that after many years in the dessert of untouchable plenty, I am hungry and I mean hungry!  Maybe things will calm down a tad later, but for now this is what I need and the fastest way I know to get back on top where I always used to be.  Lots of very grateful young women will help me get there, fast.

  She finished by three and went off to the next job, after confirming tonight's arrangements. I watched her sleek backside disappearing down the path and felt horny as hell.

  Eliza must have been reading my mind as she just phoned and obviously feeling in need of company, especially sexual. I am so tempted at the idea of a hot meal and nooky twice a week, but that is just a fantasy and fraught with deeply intricate emotional complications and neither of us need any more of them. So I said that I did not feel that was a good way forwards.  I could hear her disappointment on the phone, but there is nothing I can do, even though part of my anatomy is standing bolt upright and screaming it wants to.  Its the way of reality.
I am not being vindictive by refusing, but at least Eliza is now tasting a little of what I have had all these years.  I say a little, as its ten times worse when your feeling that horny and laid besides a naked woman you love but cannot touch, week after frustrating week over the frustrating years.  I don't actually think Eliza understands real love, her version is all wrapped up in spiritual karmas and soul mates.   I tried so hard to show her and bring that physical part so needed by any man into our relationship.  But always ran against brick walls of hostility when I got that close to reality.  The physical becomes so unimportant when one dwells in the land of spirituality and that's how it was with Eliza.  So I guess even there I was at second best and never fully complete.

  Angelina phoned earlier and we were discussing mum.  Eliza has just sprung her latest realisation upon her about the Autism and special needs being responsible for all this. Quite convincingly so it seems. If only she knew how many reasons existed before this one, many of which where really mind blowing.
The fact is as I explained to her.  From sixteen years of being joined at the hip to Eliza, the only special need Eliza has is wealth, lots of it.
When Eliza is allowed to do as she wishes without financial restriction, she is wonderful.
She has no enemy in the world, everyone is her friend and positive vibes exude from her every pore. The world becomes aglow with goodness and she will give out unlimited love to others.  That's the Eliza I married.
But, when she cannot have. That's when her special need get very upset, just like a small child she will respond irrationally and without connection to reality. She is never able to give a real reason as they are all based upon the initial illusion of must having at all costs.
Everyone becomes viewed with increasing hostility, only misery in the world is seen and the devils start appearing from somewhere. Its like a massive depression descending upon her.
Its not just a special need, its a must have need and she will wreck anything or anyone preventing her achievement of that imperative need.   That's the Eliza I was married to.  It did not happen suddenly, it securely grew until after Japan, it received an atomic infusion of urgency at any consequence.
Well the consequence has arrived and it was Eliza's choice's that now shape our divorced paths.
At the end of the day its all about cause and effect that Eliza has consistently preached about.
Maybe the effects from her actions will led to greater reflection on the reality of cause and effect in this lifetime.
She is so far on her spiritual path that even cause and effect has taken on a new identity in her mind.  She is so consumed with past and future existences, she has entirely forgotten about the present one and everyone in it! She does not see the causes she has been making in the headlong dash to satisfy her desires of wealth.  Maybe as the effects come back to roost she will.
   Maybe it will all go the other way.  If that job just happens to be vacant like one was before, then experienced or not Eliza could do it and do it the best.  Of that I have absolutely no doubt. Whether she could survive the cut throat realm or demands of such a high flyer job, there is a huge question mark as Eliza has always been her worst enemy. I've said so to her many times.
However, the odds of such a tailor made vacancy occurring within the next two months is very slim.
That's reality, but she does not have a parachute any more and reality is a long way down.

  Without a hundred grand a year job or a Mr Rich Dick or the film, some devastating effects from her causes will be felt.  Because without that materialisation, all her pointless destruction of the present will be realised and loss will be felt. I truly hope at least one of them materialises for her, otherwise she is lost.

  Anyway its just gone six and Maria will be arriving soon to do whatever Maria does. So I'm off for a quick wash.

    23:55
   Came downstairs for a much needed shower.  So your wandering how it went eh?  Lets just say that it is the best value I have had for years.
House cleaned, belly well and truly stuffed and the rest....?  That's for me to know and you to guess, but it will include breakfast.  The whole day has cost me fifty pounds with complete satisfaction assured.   I've grown another inch taller and just loving the satisfaction received from providing a little joy to a grateful woman.
So its sorted. She cleans on a Thursday and comes round to fill my belly and empty my balls on a Mon, Tues, Thurs night, complete with breakfast next morning and seconds thrown in.
Now that's what I call simple, easy and inexpensive pleasure.
She is so delighted at the opportunity to please and I happy to receive for a change.
Now?  My shower is finished and its off back to bed for seconds, or is it thirds?   See you in the morning.

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