GET GONE
The Beginning of an End to a Beginning
by Eduardo 

  Its Wednesday now and its been a bad couple of days. Started feeling unwell on Monday and with a high temperature. Some kind of tummy bug and the last thing I needed. It must have been quite bad as three days later its passed but left me feeling weak. Problem is, my physical inside is so strong that I don't often realise how sick I am and don't take the time to heal. Nearly bleeding to death in Portugal and still feeling okay is a constant reminder.
Still managed to eat a little and take Liam out for coffee and shopping. Later, we are going for dinner in Kingston and buy some new trainers, and Friday I hope to go out for the day somewhere as a family with Bella and her daughter.
Its not been nice feeling sick but in a strange way i've enjoyed the relaxation of the past couple of days. Now i am feeling better, its back to serious work and eating to regain the missing kilos. Got to get those loves handles back.

  That's it, shopping done. Liam spotted these bright orange beach shorts and loud tops and I agreed so we bought identical outfits. Trainers were the same, we both liked the same ones. He's my size in everything now so keeping our clothes separate is quite difficult. Looks like we are in for a few years of  "Can I wear that one Dad?"  and me likewise.

  Now I want to get him a really smart Nike outfit for evenings out on holidays. Maybe next week. Ah, the holiday, that reminds me. The place we are going to in Mombassa, I am kind of known a little from old family friends. Last time I stayed was many years ago and it will be a new generation now, but I'm expecting some extra special personal attention. Italian is the second language there, so I better polish up and learn some. Could be quite an interesting holiday and a real eye opener for Liam and the management will attend to his wishes completely, of that I am sure. They will love him and I think he is really going to enjoy this one.
If it was not for finishing his education, that's where I would like to be. Its a lovely cosmopolitan city with beautiful unspoiled beaches.

  Its now four in the morning, Thursday morning and its time for sleep. The house maid arrives in morning so need to be up by ten at latest. Hope Liam feels tired later today and has a sleep, its been a week and I am feeling hot for Jina in the granny flat.
After five hours sleep its all awake, shower and breakfast. The whole house feels vibrant this morning, its a nice feeling. Liam's off to Runescape for a while and me to work. Jina arrived at eleven and she's feeling as hot as I but managed to mask all that as its not right for Liam to know all his dads activities. If he doesn't sleep later, then suppose I will have to take her home tonight after dinner in the Chevy, the double bed and blacked out windows are very useful.

  The hotel faxed me today from Mombassa confirming all arrangements made and assuring me in Italian that, we will 'Buone vacanze' and 'Si accomodi, prego'. Which translates to 'have a good vacation and do as we please as their guest'.  So looks like a great time in store there. Must study Italian, I had to look up on the web to see what the signature meant.
After a stuffed dinner, I don't feel like driving anywhere so Jina is off to the train station, disappointed. Personally I don't care, maybe I'm going off all this bonking just for sex only.
Anyway, we are off to bed like two good bachelors.

  The week has just flown by. Its Saturday afternoon now and Liam has just come back from visiting with his mum all day. Relaxed in the garden most of today, recovering from yesterday. The kids had a whale of a time. First it was go cart racing. Not the sort of place we would go to before as its too noisy and dirty for his mum. They really enjoyed the huge track and very fast carts. Then it was off for something to eat at a boating and ski lake I know. The kids managed to have a speed boat ride out with the skiers, which finished the day nicely.
We dropped Bella and her daughter off and got back home dog tired. My right leg gave in yesterday, so I'm hobbling around but still feeling great after a wonderful family day out. Well I was until I read the emails and the one from Eliza. I wont go into details, but the essence was she wants more money from me, a lot more money.
What did I say? Well, after blowing a couple of fuses I replied.

"First reaction?
Well, you should not have upturned the apple cart then should you??
This is reality now! Bit late to be concerned is it not?
Want money?? Go find someone with pots of it. That's what you have always wanted!
If I had pots of it you would still be here and we BOTH know that is true!!
So no bullshit.
All your ravings about a rich guy which I am not? Slanders about my pathetic ability to make the dough?
You made your bed, now lay on it.
You had more opportunities and realities than any man could ever give a woman, but it was not enough.
You and I are irrevocably on totally separate paths now. You have more money than I in the bank and a family around you. Its maybe not what you fantasized, but its the reality of what you now have.
I've already provided and still am, more than would be expected of anyone given the circumstances. So why not be humble and grateful for a change.
Or is that it? You only have in your eyes, small 'change' in the bank. Its not the zillions you thirsted for, so how could you ever be grateful??
Upset? Yes I'm upset. Spoilt a beautiful family day.

Second reaction?
Maybe another day. Just a tad mad right now! So leave it be."

  I felt really upset after that I can tell you. She cleans me out financially and wants more to support the dwindling fantasy's and delusions. Maybe she is starting to realise, she quit too early and I might just make all those zillions after all. In fact, its looking very probable that I may have turned the financial karma corner, now she has gone from here. But my future beneficiaries will enjoy that, not Eliza. That will be her effect for the cause she created and it will be a bitter pill for her to swallow.

  One thing I do believe in is cause and effect. I believed it before I met Eliza and had it drummed into me daily ever since. From my understanding, to lack true gratitude is a sin. To desert ones family for reasons of pure fantasy is a huge sin and to send curses is the biggest of all. I may be no angel myself and indeed yet may receive effects back from previous causes, good ones I hope, but to create these sort of bad causes? I cant imagine the nightmare effects.
Maybe she had some of these thoughts in Japan and that is why she came back as if almost possessed by something that was consuming her. So much so as to lose ten kilos in three weeks! I don't know and don't really care anymore. Its too complex and full of illusions wrapped up in spiritual karmas.

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